By: Independent Love
Here we are again
The thoughts in my head spinning
Eyes welling up with tears
My throat choking back the pain
The ache in my chest
Stomach doing flips
Moment after moment
Replaying every image
Every encounter
What did I do wrong?
Holding my breath
Just have to stay busy
Frantically looking for something to do
All of a sudden,
My surroundings aren’t a home.
I don’t recognize anything in my life
Hyperventilating now
Letting it all out
Screams
Cries
Tears
Where is the line?
Where does your guilt stop?
And mine start?
I’m confused.
And hurt.
What was my fault?
What was yours?
Everything is blurry
But it still makes me hate myself.
How do I not repeat this cycle again?
Am I playing the victim?
Or am I taking too much of your shit?
When do I close the door?
And stop taking all the pain