Guilt

By: Independent Love

Here we are again

The thoughts in my head spinning

Eyes welling up with tears

My throat choking back the pain

The ache in my chest

Stomach doing flips

Moment after moment

Replaying every image

Every encounter

What did I do wrong?

Holding my breath

Just have to stay busy

Frantically looking for something to do

All of a sudden,

My surroundings aren’t a home.

I don’t recognize anything in my life

Hyperventilating now

Letting it all out

Screams

Cries

Tears

Where is the line?

Where does your guilt stop?

And mine start?

I’m confused.

And hurt.

What was my fault?

What was yours?

Everything is blurry

But it still makes me hate myself.

How do I not repeat this cycle again?

Am I playing the victim?

Or am I taking too much of your shit?

When do I close the door?

And stop taking all the pain